Last night was the second session of our Brilliance Remastered Webinar Beyond the Feel-Good: A Sustainable Erotics of Community Accountable Scholarship.   Amazingness.  Last night we worked with Audre Lorde’s clarity that “the erotic offers a well of replenishing and provocative force to the [person] who does not fear its revelation, nor succumb to the belief that sensation is enough.”  And for those of us remastering our presence in academic spaces it is important for us to clarify that within an economy that wants to tokenize our brilliance, BEING a sensation, a shining exception, a validated symbol is not enough.  We are doing the intellectual work we are doing for much bigger reasons.  Betta recognize!

Here

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to ignite a flame

I am here to change the world

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to sow seeds of magic

I am here to love

I am not here to settle

I am here to set the tone

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am knowing as an act

I am here to expand the limits

of what counts

as knowledge

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to unshackle brilliance

wherever it grows

I am here to make manifest

the dreams of my ancestors

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to imagine

I am here to create

I am here to dance

I am here to laugh to sing to share

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to be myself

I am here to be connected

I am here to engender vulnerability

and to make it possible

for those in the room to do the same

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to find a path to reconciliation

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to be accountable

I am here to hold others accountable

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to humanize

I am here to become more human

I am here to make meaning

I am here to be love

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to glow

I am here to know and to share

that to be young gifted and black AND queer

is a MARVELOUS thing to be

 

I am here to steal back the goodies

 

I am not just a sensation

I am inspiration

I am here to interrupt injustice

Yes I’m here to demand answers

and to ask more questions

and to ask and ask and ask and ask

 

I am inspiration

I am here to be like water

nourishing, remembering what you chose to forget

reflecting back to you your own image

 

I am inspiration

I am here to be a question mark

I am here to be an x that marks a spot

where love will outlive everything

I am here to make fertile the soil of our dreams

planting for a harvest I won’t ever reap in my lifetime

 

I am inspiration

I am not just a sensation, a temptation a distraction

I am unstoppable love in action.