Last night was the third session of Beyond the Feel-Good, our Brilliance Remastered webinar on cultivating a sustainable erotics of community accountable scholarship.  We are right in the midst of it, using Lorde’s definition of the erotic to create new standards of brilliance for our work as love-fueled intellectuals.   Helped along by Lorde and also by Aretha Franklin’s Dr. Feelgood we created this group poem to affirm that we KNOW what it feels like when it is right and we do not need to “sit and chit chat and smile” i.e. waste our time with anything less than profound, passionate, purposeful, presence in our work!  Feel free to feel it!!!!

This is What it Feels Like

“It is an internal sense of satisfaction to which, once we have experienced it, we know we can aspire.  For having experienced the fullness of this depth of feeling and recognizing its power, in honor and self-respect we can require no less of ourselves. “

-Audre Lorde  Uses of the Erotic

When it’s right it feels like a note Aretha just sang.

When it’s right it feels like dancing in warm rain.

When it’s right it feels like the ocean, ever deep, ever lifting me up.

When it’s right it feels like still waters rushing nowhere, knowing its source is the same place it must return.

When it’s right it feels like a “first” experience.

When it’s right it feels like a longing for something true, true feeling.

When it’s right it feels like a yearning, like intimacy without physical contact, a yearning of the spirit.

When it’s right it feels soft.

When it’s right it feels like fresh air.

When it’s right it feels like air gently bristling in the hairs on the back of my neck.

When it’s right it feels complicated sweet, freshing sweet, like lemonade.

When it’s right it feels abundant and free.

When it’s right it feels limitless.

When it’s right it feels timeless.

When it’s right it feels deep and endless.

When it’s right it feels like a way out of no way.

When it’s right it feels like something out of anything.

When it’s right it feels like gospel choirs singing!

When it’s right it feels like Nina and Jill and E. Badu and Ella getting together for a jam session.

When it’s right it feels like the music of the heart.

When  it’s right it feels like lovers.

When it’s right it feels like a mother’s hug.

When it’s right it feels like everyone is there, ancestors, future beings, everyone I love.

When it’s right it feels like a prepared-perfected-my-craft-ready-to-serve orgasm!

When it’s right it feels like the word “YES!” bursting in my chest.

When it’s right it feels unstoppable.

When it’s right it feels like I was meant to be no other place in the universe.

When it’s right it feels like Audre whispered this to June once, full of hope.

When it’s right it feels like a dream I had that must have never ended.

When it’s right it feels.

This is what it feels like!